Thursday, December 16, 2010

VICTIM IMPACT STATEMENT


Your Honour ,
My baby killed herself because of those girls.  So I think these girls should have 25 years to life in jail because the where threatening beat her up and calling her offensive words; those words lead her in to suicide.  Your Honour can you see yourself going home one day and finding out your son found your daughter hanging in her room from your dog leash in her closet? The pain of her death plus your son finding her is one of the worst feelings in the world. I wish I died at the time.
 Before I read the suicide note I thought it was all my fault but as soon as I read it I was so a full of feelings I didn’t know what to do.  The note said that she had been threatened by bullies and she believed death was her only escape.  My son feels like it all his fault every night I keep on telling him it’s not his fault.  My daughter was only 14 years old and she had a whole life ahead.  All this because of 3 girls bullying, who thought all this could come from bullying?
  MY daughter had big plans. She could have been a Doctor a CEO or anything else she wanted to be. She didn’t even reach university.  I can remember just the day before she was happy and running with her brother I had no idea she was thinking about suicide.  I can’t even think about what my son is thinking. He had to take some time off from school and everything else.  Everywhere I go I think of her.  When I pass by her room and when I see her shoes and whenever I see anything else that is hers.
 I wish I can go back to the days she was alive. I feel like I’m in a bad dream I wish I can wake up from but it’s all real. Sometimes when I’m walking, I just start crying.  I can’t even walk when I talk about it like now.  I wonder how you would feel your honor if your most valuable thing was taken from you and you couldn’t do anything about it?  I would do anything to be with her right now or for her to be with me. That is my biggest dream just to have my family all back as it was. I think that if these girls do not get 25 years to life that they should get a severe punishment.  I could never go through the same experience again.  I wonder how those girls feel about what they did to my baby?  I just hope those girls learn from their mistakes but bulling is never tolerated so hope those girls never bully again.  She was the only girl I had. So when she passed it changed my life emotionally and physically and spiritually and mentally. This tragedy has impacted my life more than anything has ever.  I wonder what they gained from bullying my baby girl. I’ll tell you they gained nothing.  I remember when she was a baby;  she grew up so fast. And then she was taken away form me I can even wake up from bed because I wish this was all a big bad dream! All I want is justice!